the randomness that I call my life

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Everybody has a right to their own opinon? Apparently not.

So I have officially lost all faith in humanity.
I am completely nonplussed. I cannot even comprehend what is happening in our state.
First of all, let me say that I had decided that I was just simply not going to vote on Prop 8. I was very torn on the issue. Some of my best friends are gay, and I felt like I would be betraying them if I voted yes. But I felt like I would be going against my family and other friends if I voted no. So I just felt it was best to not vote at all. For those of you that don't know what Prop 8 is, first, you need to come back from whatever planet you've been visiting for the last however long, and second, you should know that it simply states "Only marriage between a man and a woman is valid and recognized in California." At least that's what it originally said, before state Attorney General, Jerry Brown, changed the wording on the official ballots to say "Eliminates the right of same-sex couples to marry."
That's it. It's just keeping the definition of the word 'marriage' the same as it's been for hundreds of years. Absolutely nothing has changed in the laws since it passed. And nothing has been taken away from gays. They have all the same rights under civil unions. Trust me, I have done a TON of research on this subject since I've been so torn on what to do about it. But the Prop 8 opponents have twisted it around to make it sound like it's this horrible thing that is taking away all their rights and making them second class citizens. WHAT?!?! They still have the right to a Civil Union. They have all the same state rights. It is true, that they don't have all the federal rights, but this Prop is on a state level. It's not going to change anything federally either way. And I hope that one day they will be able to have all the same rights federally. They should have the same rights.

But all that doesn't even matter to me right now....the whole reason I'm blogging about this is because of what has taken place because of this issue.
Let me now say that I finally, at the last minute, decided to vote yes on Prop 8. And I will tell you why.
I cannot stand the fact that the whole campaign slogan for the opponents of Prop 8 was "No on hate, No on 8". And yet, these people seem to be filled with nothing but hate. And yes, I realize that not everybody opposing it feels this way, but it seems to be a large majority. And these people are representing the rest of the opponents of Prop 8. How is it okay for them to claim to be against hate, but be calling people bigots and other hateful words. And the fact that they have chosen to mostly attack Mormons is completely contemptible. And now even though I may not agree with everything having to do with the LDS church, it is full of very good people. Some very important people to me in my life. People that have helped me a lot throughout my life. People that I care about immensely and would do absolutely anything for. And they have not done anything wrong. They have simply stood up for what they believe in. And so has the rest of the state of California. The no on 8 camp has put most of the blame on the Mormons. But the Mormon population of California is less than 5%. How is 5% of the population responsible for over 52% of the state voting yes on 8?? True, the Mormon population did raise a lot of money for Yes on 8. But a lot of non-Mormon people donated also. And there were even some Mormons that donated to No on 8. I don't suppose the opponents of 8 think that they are horrible people.
And then, don't even get me started on this video. Now...not that I'm saying it's ok....but it would be one thing to imply that they are Mormon missionaries. Still not necessarily appropriate, but a little more forgiving. But to actually specifically identify themselves as being Mormon missionaries is absolutely dispicable.
I don't understand how it is okay for my friends and family to be confronted and harrassed in their work and school settings. Called hateful names, yet being accused of being hateful people themselves. Losing friendships because people don't agree with them. Why is the tolerance only required to go one way? It makes me sick. So much for freedom of speech in our country. I thought that was one of the reasons our country is so great.
So now I've had my say. If you don't agree with me, that's fine. Unlike other people, I fully respect everybody's right to have their own opinion. Feel free to share it with me. I'm curious what other people are thinking about all of this.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Halloween Time!

So one of my favorite holidays is almost here.....and as you all know, Nightmare Before Christmas is one of my favorite movies. :)
So last week a new cd was released.....with a bunch of remakes of all the songs by different artists. If you are a fan of the movie and/or music it's definitely worth checking out
I think my favorite song on there is probably Amy Lee's (Evanescence) version of Sally's Song.
I got it off Itunes.....but I'm sure it's on amazon and other places as well. It's called Nightmare Revisited =D

And yes, I have been on Haunted Mansion Holiday this year. Not many times, since due to my being a gimp lately I haven't been able to make it up there much. And even when I have I don't last very long. But I've been on it a couple times. And the dining room table centerpiece they have this year might be my favorite. I'll give you a hint......'No! Not my gumdrop buttons!' :o)

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Now playing: RJD2 - Christmas Eve Montage
via FoxyTunes

Saturday, September 06, 2008

The never ending vicious cycle of life

So I've decided that life is just out to get me. :o)
Sometimes I wish that I could be 10 again....where my biggest stresses were whether or not I was going to be able to convince my parents to buy me the latest New Kids on the Block cassette or whether I was going to make it home from softball practice to see the new episode of Full House. But then I realize that being an adult is better overall. I guess.

I know that I need stress in my life. I don't function very well without it. But I'd really appreciate some sort of middle ground. I don't function well with large amounts of it either.
So continuing in this vicious cycle of figuring out how to get past the latest crises and waiting for the next one to happen....hoping that maybe I'll actually get a break and have a few days to breathe.....the next one came crashing down. Literally.

I was sitting at a stop light on Thursday afternoon when a lady decided to ram right into the back of me. Yay. I keep change in the little ashtray/trash compartment in the dash, and it popped open and all the money flew out at my face.
Of course my first two thoughts as this is happening are:
"Are you freakin kidding me?!?!?!? I just got my car back last week!!!!!" (from being fixed after the last person that decided to back into me) and "This is seriously going to cut into my nap time that I was so looking forward to"
I seemed to be ok. Just kinda shaken up a bit.
Pulled over. Got out of the car. The lady that hit me started apologizing saying she thought the light was green. Blah blah blah (shout out to Terry) ;)
She tries to figure out all her insurance information. Meanwhile I am looking at my car. The whole back end is completely smashed in. My trunk is popped open and won't close. The tail lights are all shattered.
Then the sheriff that happened to be driving by, pulled over. He was very nice. Asked us both for our licenses and he ran them. Turns out that the lady's license had been suspended. And my neck was starting to hurt a bit. Double yay.
This happened just up the hill from my apartment, which also happens to be just outside of Hillary's work....so she came out to make sure I was ok and stayed with me for awhile. She was very helpful....asking the sheriff questions I probably wouldn't have thought of. I had to hang out for awhile because they had to write up an incident report since the lady's license was suspended. While waiting, 2 other sheriff cars came. Tow truck came to tow the lady's car, since she couldn't drive now (well....technically she wasn't suppose to before either). I decided to drive my car home since it was just down the hill like a quarter of a mile. And thank God it was only a quarter of a mile.....it really wasn't drivable. The trunk wouldn't stay closed and the bumper was hanging down so far it was scraping on the back tires.
So yeah.....made a million phone calls to get the insurance crap going, my car towed to the shop, making a dr's appointment and getting a rental car-which was a whole other pain in the butt that I'm not very happy with. Currently driving a huge Dodge Durango for over $50 a day. TRIPLE YAY!!!!
Went to the doctor yesterday afternoon. She gave me super strength ibprofen, vicoden and flexirol. :D Which is good....because as of today I am quite possibly in the worst pain I've ever had in my life. I'm trying really hard not to be a baby about it....but dang. My back and neck are killing me.
So hopefully this won't take too long to get all worked out.....but I'm not holding my breath seeing as how there is going to be a whole investigation process because of the stupid lady with a suspended license. *sigh*

Anyways......my new current obsession is a new album by Brooke Waggoner. It's kind of folk/pop. Catchy stuff. You should check it out.
I promise to blog sooner than 6 months next time. :o)

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Now playing: Brooke Waggoner - Young Friend
via FoxyTunes

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Cheerfully depressed

Apparently several months have gone by without my ramblings.
I guess I've been busy. =p
The last few months have been pretty crazy.....had a lot going on. I can't believe it's already the end of April. I don't really think I have a lot to ramble about....but here's a rundown of some of the things I've learned so far this year:
*You MUST remember to make time for yourself
*Sometimes it's ok and a lot of fun to ditch responsibilities to go goof off with your best friend for an afternoon
*Reality tv in general sucks....and Hollywood writers should never go on strike again. Thankfully they came to their senses and we have new episodes of Lost and Desperate Housewives back ;)
*Even the best relationships need constant work
*There are certain physical activities that are a lot easier and much more enjoyable 170 pounds lighter ;)
*Salads are freakin awesome and much easier to eat everyday when you add fresh mushrooms, broccoli, snap peas and bell peppers (thanks Hillary and Dave) ;)
*Even when you think you have a lot of patience....you can always use more
*Mariah Carey songs can sound pretty awesome as emo/rock songs (thank you hottie David Cook....who I've decided is my new boyfriend, by the way) hehe
*My family and close friends really are the most important things in the world to me and I can't take that for granted
*Johnny Depp CAN get even hotter when he sings....even if he is slitting people's throats in the process (that's right....go rent Sweeney Todd)
*You don't always have to put up a front...it's ok to let your guard down and let people know you aren't ok
*The Foo Fighters are freakin awesome in concert...and Dave Grohl is dead sexy
*Dinners with Terry and Leeayn are never a let down ;)


Latest favorite movies:
*Sweeney Todd...obviously
*Enchanted....super cute movie and catchy songs
*Dan In Real Life....one of my new favorites!!! Super cute movie and an awesome soundtrack. Rent it if you haven't seen it!
*Juno...another super cute movie with an awesome soundtrack. Very clever.
*Once....yet another one with an awesome soundtrack. They won the best song Oscar this year for Falling Slowly

Most played songs on my non-existent Ipod ;):
*Once Soundtrack
*Dan In Real Life Soundtrack
*Juno Soundtrack
*Sweeney Todd Soundtrack (do we see a pattern here)
*Jason Castro from American Idol (cutie with the dreads) singing Somewhere Over the Rainbow
*Foo Fighters - Come Alive
*Iron and Wine - Boy with a Coin
*Spoon - The Underdog
*Vampire Weekend - M79
*Kate Nash - Foundations (Emmy....have you heard of her??? I love her cd)
*Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am
*Jack Johnson - If I Had Eyes
*John Mayer - Say
*The new Radiohead CD
*Janet Jackson - Feedback
*Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown - No Air

And just today the new Madonna cd was released. Of course I downloaded it....I am a huge fan of her last one, Confessions on a Dance Floor. If you are fan of that one you should definitely check out this one. It's pretty fantastic. =)

Nothing else too terribly exciting.......
Oh, I started a third job. You know....because I'm crazy. No, but really it's another easy, work from home thing. Addressing envelopes and postcards for a real estate company. Easy money.
Oh, and I also broke up with the boyfriend. It was fun for awhile, but he just got too needy and I don't do well with that. I really need my space. So he had to go. Unfortunately he acted like a 5 year old and it didn't end well....but whatever.

So I will leave you with a funny quote from Jim on The Office:
"Because right now, this is a job. If I advance any higher, this would be my career. And if this were my career, I'd have to throw myself in front of a train."

Thursday, December 20, 2007

2007

Or more appropriately....2007? Where did you go?
I mean seriously, I know they say that the older you get, the faster time goes....but come on! This is ridiculous. It doesn't seem even a little bit like Christmas to me yet. I think because in my brain it was just last Christmas. Of course it doesn't help that stores these days put out Christmas stuff the day after Valentine's Day, so it's easy to get confused. And yes, that means I still have shopping to do. :o)
So this year has been an interesting one for me. I've had a lot of ups and downs emotionally...unfortunately mostly downs. And I've had a lot of health issues....but things seem to be slowly getting better. Especially now that I'm finally getting over my almost two month battle with strep throat/tonisilitis. ;)
Since surveys seem to be the way to go lately, I'll share this one that a friend posted on myspace:

* How old did you turn this year? 27
*What was your favorite day or event this year? Squishie Girl's Weekend!!!!
*What was your least favorite day or event of the year? Hmmmmm......I guess I'll say the week of the fires
*What was the craziest thing you did this year? lol probably making out with a stranger :o)
*What was the stupidest thing you did this year? I don't think I did anything overly stupid....I might have to get back to you on that one
*Who were you most thankful for this year? My family....including Hillary :)
*Did you quit your job or get a new job this year? Yes...I quit after almost 8 years at TERI. I didn't really get a 'new' job per say....but I did work for Hillary's boss for a few weekends at one of their offices.
*Did you move this year? Yes! Moved into this apartment with Hillary in January. Man....has it really been almost a year?
*Did you make any extravagant purchases this year? I don't think I did.
*Something you did this year that you are very proud of? Um....Losing another 60 pounds to put the grand total around 150 pounds :)
*Something you did that you are not proud of? no comment....so yes, there is something, but I won't elaborate :p
*Did you lose somebody close to you this year? No, thankfully
*Do you have any goals for the next year? I want to get back on track on my diet and finish losing the last 60 pounds I want to lose

And then here are some of my favorite pictures from this year:

Larilyn and Jenna with our cousin Josh at our brother's wedding

Hillary and Tigger....I don't think this one needs any more captions than it's already had before :o)


Terry and Leeayn reading and studying the new rules at 'The Club'. How many things are wrong with that sentence?? lol


What happens when the fire alarm goes off at the hotel at 6 in the morning? Kumbaya singing and trust falls. :o)

Illinois!!!

This guy was standing outside of Disneyland with a sign asking for a free ticket. He told me he's gotten into like a dozen broadway shows in New York this way. I wonder if he ever got in? lol



Dad counting the money at Club 33. lol


Hillary doing laundry

SISTERS!!!

Me and dad at my brother's wedding reception


Braden sleeping with the trash. (it's quite comfortable, you know)


Braden and my dad. This is one of my favorite pictures of all time. =)

Devin and Heather goofing off on their wedding day


When Hillary ripped her pants in the Starbucks parking lot on the way to Disneyland



Hillary and her little brother Brian =)



Jenna, Hillary and I camping in 115 degree weather in Utah


I love this picture of myself. That doesn't happen very often so it's definitely going on here. =p

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Wow, it's been awhile.....

I realized I haven't blogged in forever......
This one isn't really an important blog.....but I found this questionnaire interesting because it had different questions than they usually do.

1. Would you bang your neighbor?
Well the neighbor boys are pretty hot.....but gay. So no, I don't see that happening.

2. What describes your current status?
that's a loaded question.......I'll go with "stressed"

3. Where are you?
in my room in front of the computer

4. What's the last TV show you watched?
America's Most Smartest Model (No Desperate Housewives tonight)

5. I've come to realize the last person who held my hand is...
Probably one of my clients......certainly hasn't been a boy lately :p

6. What is your middle name?
Marie

7. Who have you talked to most today?
Hillary

8. Do you carve pumpkins every year?
no

9. Color of the underwear you have on?
lavender

10. Shirt?
black tank top

11. I'm always...
worried about stupid things

12. Who's on speed dial 2? 4? 6?
don't use it

13. Honestly, how many people do you have strong feelings for?
?? this question confuses me. I love all my family and close friends very much.

14. What's your favorite season?
Fall/Winter....which is the same thing in southern California :p

15. Good advice if you ever go camping?
bring somebody who knows how to put up the tent hehe

16. Are you a bad influence?
well that probably depends on who you ask

17. Are you in love?
with a person? not right now

18. Rather have your name or your siblings name?
I like my name....I think all my siblings names suit them

19. Would you do anything for someone else?
For any of my family or friends

20. Have you ever been called a bitch?
most definitely

21. Best Friend(s)?
Hillary, Paul and Joe
AE: 21b. BFF's?? Terry =)

22. What is your ring tone?
"Love Today" by Mika

23. What song is on?
"Here" by Idina Menzel

24. Are your grades good?
not in school

25. Do you ever think people hate you for filling these out?
don't think so....people usually steal them and do it themselves :p

26. Does your best friend have a myspace?
yes

27. Whose page did you visit last?
Karlton

28. Last time you went out to lunch?
went out with Paul on Wednesday

30. Who is your favorite character from Friends?
Chandler

31. Do you have a tattoo?
not yet....I'm such a chicken!

32. Do you want another one/or one at all?
yes....I have like 4 in mind. Wanted a Jack Skellington one for like 10 years

33. Do you have one or more Britney Spears CD?
um....yes?
Ok, I'm not gonna lie....I'm a fan :p Of her music....not her. Kind of like my relationship with Michael Jackson. Wow...that sounds wrong. lol I just like his music.

34. What did you do last night?
I don't remember......I've been sick, so I probably just watched tv or a movie and went to bed.

35. Are you a Lost fanatic?
fanatic really doesn't even come close to describing how obsessed I am with that show

36. Say you were given a drug test right now. Would you pass or fail?
I'd pass

37. Do you have a song by Ozzy Osbourne in your library?
yes

38.iPod or Zune?
Believe it or not I don't have either.....but I'm intrigued by the Zune.

39. Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
Absolutely

40. King of the Hill?
no....can't stand it

41. Do you read trashy romance novels often?
never have

42. What's the last thing you bought?
groceries

43. What's the last thing someone bought you?
My dad bought me flowers and medicines when I first got sick a couple weeks ago
Oh...and Hillary bought me a cute makeup bag the other day =)

44. Do you ever sing obnoxiously in the shower?
No lol

45. What's in your CD player right now?
In the cd player in my car is a random cd I made last week.

46. What's your favorite romance movie?
More of a romantic comedy kind of girl......Return to Me would be at the top of that list

47. Another favorite movie?
Rent

48. Do you believe everyone has a soulmate?
hmmmmmm.......I don't know about that

49. Can you sing?
I can sing ok I guess

50. Can you play any instruments?
yeah....piano, drums, clarinet and a little guitar

51. Have you ever been to another country?
Yes

53. Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
lol I definitely can be

54. Have you ever been to South America or Africa?
no

55. Do you know how to knit?
sort of....not really

56. Do you have a job?
2 of 'em

57. Have you ever written love song lyrics yourself and put them on?
I used to write song lyrics......but put them on? on what? I have a notebook full of them somewhere. Well, not all love songs. But there's probably a couple of those.

58. Favorite sports team?
Chargers, Padres, Bears, Lakers

60. Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?
I've only been a couple times, but I think I prefer Coldstone

61. Physics or chemistry?
no thank you

62. Facebook or Myspace?
well I only have a myspace, but I've been told by several friends that facebook is better

64. R-rated or G-rated movies?
yes....I love movies

65. Walk or Run?
walk

66. Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, or Star Wars?
Well I've only seen Star Wars...so I'll go with that one. Plus if I didn't Kerri might kill me ;)

67. Fly or road trip?
Road trip

68. Batman, Spiderman, or Superman?
eh, not really into the superhero thing. The guy that plays Superman in Smallville is pretty hot though

69. What's your favorite Disney movie?
not counting pixar or Nightmare Before Christmas because those aren't classic Disney....
animated: Sword in the Stone
live action: Summer Magic

70. What did you do for your last birthday?
Hillary, Paul and Patty took me to see Keane in concert on my birthday and the next night Larilyn took me to see "A Light in the Piazza" =)

Name SIX things you did this past weekend
1. sleep
2. work
3. watch tv
4. play video games
5. be sick
6. go for a walk


List FOUR people you can tell pretty much anything to:
Hillary, Paul, Joe, Mark

List THREE favorite colors
1. blue
2. pink
3. green


List TWO things you want to do before you die
1. go on a cross country road trip
2. become independently wealthy :p

That's it for now.....
I promise to blog again soon with more important goings on =)

Friday, July 20, 2007

A,B,C's of my randomness

A
• Are you available?: depends on who's asking :o)
• What is your age?: 27
• What annoys you?: stupid people

B
• Do you know anyone named Billy?: BILLY HILL!!! and the Hillbillies, of course
• When is your birthday?: May 11th
• Who is your best friend?: Hillary

C
• What's your favorite candy?: reeses cups
• Crush?: eh.....
• When was the last time you cried?: earlier today

D
• Do you daydream?: too much I think
• What's your favorite kind of dog?: Paisley =)
• What day of the week is it?: Friday

E
• How do you like your eggs?: over easy
• Have you ever been in the emergency room?: yes
• Have you ever pet an elephant? can't recall such things

F
• Do you use fly swatters?: I have before....but not really a regular occurance.
• Have you ever used a foghorn?: No
• Is there a fan in your room?: yes

G
• Do you chew gum?: yes....I always have Orbitz gum with me
• Do you like gory movies?: not really
• Favorite board game?: not really a "board" game, but Apples to Apples

H
• How are you?: pretty good.....tired
• What's your height?: 5'9" or so
• What color is your hair?: brown

I
• What’s your favorite ice cream? vanilla
• Have you ever ice skated?: yes......but not well
• Ever been in an igloo?: no

J
• What's your favorite Jelly Bean?: buttered popcorn jelly bellies
• Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke?: yes.....arrrrrrrrrrrrutabega :o)
• Do you wear jewelry?: yes

K
• Ever been kayaking?: no
• Have you ever flown a kite? yes
• Do you think kangaroos are cute?: sure

L
• Lions or tigers?: ligers
• Do you like black licorice?: no way
• What are you listening to right now?: the fan, my pager going off and "The Night of the Dancing Flame" by Roisin Murphy

M
• Favorite movie as a kid?: had lots.....I'll say Labyrinth
• Ever shopped at Moosejaw?: yeah, the last time I climbed a mountain ????????
• Favorite store at the mall?: Hot Topic, Bath and Body Works and Disney Store

N
• Do you have a nickname?: yes, many
• What’s your favorite number?: 13
• Do you prefer night or day?: night

O
• What's your one wish?: to be independently wealthy
• Only child?: no
• Do you like the color orange?: yes

P
• What are you most paranoid about?: losing people close to me
• Piercing?: yes
• You know anyone named Penelope?: that's one of my Starbuck's names. :o)

Q
• Are you quick to judge people?: yes....I'm really bad about that
• Do you like Quaker Oats? sometimes
• Know anyone that makes quilts?: yes

R
• Do you think you're always right?: no
• Do you watch reality TV?: a couple of shows....but I'm certainly no 'junkie' like some people I know :o)
• Reason to cry?: ???? what is a reason I have right now? what is a reason I think is good? I don't get it.

S
• Do you prefer sun or rain?: depends. I hate it when it rains on work days because then I have to be creative with what I do with my group at work. We spend a lot of time outside. If it's a weekend sometimes it's nice to have a rainy day
• Do you like snow?: I like looking at it and being in it for short periods of time. I HATE living in it
• What’s your favorite season?: Fall

T
• What time is it?: 11:30 pm
• What time did you wake up?: 6:30am.....half an hour late
• Who did you last text?: Jenna

U
• Can you ride a unicycle?: never tried....maybe I'd surprise myself
• Do you know anyone with a unibrow?: yes
• How many uncles do you have?: 6...well, 7 if you count Uncle Craig :o)

V
• What's the worst vegetable?: lima beans
• Did you ever watch Veggie Tales?: yes
• Ever considered being vegan?: not really

W
• What's your worst habit?: judging people
• Ever been inside a windmill?: don't think so
• Ever been whale watching?: no, but I want to!

X
• Have you ever had an x-ray?: yes
• Ever used a Xerox machine?: yes
• Play the xylophone?: yes....in drumline

Y
• Do you like the color yellow?: yes
• What year were you born in?: 1980
• Do you yell when you're angry?: sometimes....but mostly just at stupid drivers

Z
• Do you believe in the zodiac? sure
• What's your zodiac sign?: Taurus
• When was the last time you went to the zoo?: a couple of years ago.